Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Invictus

Invictus was written in 1875 by William Ernest Henley

After taking a poetry class this semester at Towson University I have learned a lot about poetry and how to read it. The most important thing I gleaned from the class was that you don't necessarily have to understand what the speaker means when he/she writes the words. What you need to take note of is how the poem resonates with you, the reader. I love this poem because it speaks to me in more ways than you can imagine. How does it speak to you?

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the buldgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Greetings - Again!

It's been some time since I've written anything on this blog. A lot has happened this last year and casual blogging was something I just couldn't get excited about. I did however start another blog that will explain my absence - I lovingly refer to it as my Leukemia blog. Please feel free to visit http://www.goldilocks2.blogspot.com/.

In the next few days and weeks I will be adding new musings to this blog. I hope you find it enjoyable. Be sure to add your name to my Followers list at the bottom of the page so I'll know that at least one other person is interested in what I have to say. Writers are like that - they need to be indulged! I welcome your comments whether they are encouraging or not - that is how I hope to grow.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Graduate School and Me

I am very excited - I just completed my very first graduate course at Towson University. What a great college, by the way. The course is called "Writing Short Fiction" and that's exactly what I did - I wrote short stories.

This was my first experience with short story writing and I must admit, I found it quite challenging. Now, that's not to say that I haven't tried reading short stories in the past, I have, but honestly, I never understood them. Now I do. Professor Downs rocks!

One day I hope to link my short stories to this blog so that anyone who would like to indulge me can. Although they still need lots and lots of work (I tend to write with too much exposition and no dialogue), I promise to keep plugging along and revising until I can't revise no more!

Oh, and here is a recommendation for a great anthology of 99 short stories - three stories apiece by thirty-three different short story writers. Give it a try - maybe you'll find one you love.
3 X 33: Short Fiction by 33 Writers (Mark Winegardner)

"I can't write without a reader. It's precisely like a kiss - you can't do it alone. " John Cheever

Happy New Year - Here's To Good Health

Well, I must say I sure know how to kick off the New Year - get really sick and spend 6 days in the hospital! Doesn't sound like tons of fun, now does it? Seems I developed a nasty blood infection, quite possibly from a dental implant that I had removed 6 months ago. The bad news is, the dentist neglected to prescribe antibiotics! Jeez! Now I'm being treated for endocarditis, a very serious infection of the heart valves.Currently I am on a pretty powerful antibiotic called vancomycin which can only be administered intravenously. I have a PICC (Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter) in my upper right arm by which I receive my medication. From my upper arm the PICC Line runs up and then across my chest where it sits in a large vein just above my heart. My homecare nurse has instructed me on how to “hook myself up” so I am able to administer my meds at home or work. I have to give myself the antibiotic twice a day for 30 days. Each session takes approximately 2 1/2 to 3 hours. Just imagine giving up 6-7 hours of time per day. I am currently on a 9:00 am/9:00 pm schedule. Twice a week, my homecare nurse visits to take blood samples in order to measure my vancomycin troughs – too much vancomycin can effect my kidneys and hearing and too little won’t fight the infection effectively. The blood tests must be given just prior to my 9:00 am dosage. It took days for my body to adjust to the initial side effects of such a strong antibiotic – some too personal in nature to discuss here! Let’s just say that mornings were the worst. Oh, and I can’t lift anything over 5 lbs. Now, the good news. Frankly, I am grateful to be alive! My cardiologist encourages me to get back in the swing - to ease back into my normal life as I start to feel better. I am all for that! If only my physical self agreed with my inner-enthusiastic self. Although I deplore being sick, I’m learning to care for myself first. My equipment and medications are portable and light-weight and while everything may look menacing it really is not.This has been a real eye-opening experience for me and I think it has changed me forever. I look at things much differently now. I hope I never go back to taking things for granted or forgetting to be grateful for all of life's simple pleasures. Cheers!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Pet Peeves

What do cars, cigars and grocery carts all have in common? No guesses? How about the fact that each represents a source of stress in the lives of everyday, ordinary people. Let me explain.

I recently asked about 20 of my friends and family to each send me five of their top pet peeves. You know, the little things that just drive you crazy! Some provided more than 5, while others offered one or two whoppers - the likes of which I can't post here, that's for sure. When I met the challenge myself I found it only took seconds to come up with ten really good ones. What can be deduced from that - I don't know - maybe it's simply that it proves that there really are many annoying, nit-picky inconveniences in life and everyone experiences them. Anyway, my unscientific and random survey was kinda like talking over the back fence to a neighbor, but what the heck, it was fun to read what everyone had to say. So, here are the responses in no particular order. You'll probably recognize many of them as your pet peeves too.

1. Delivery trucks/buses that block the driving lane instead of pulling up to the curb.
2. People who cruise the left hand lane of the highway.
3. People who pass on the right.
4. People who litter.
5. People who let their dogs poop on other people's property or public places and don't pick it up.
6. People who don't correct their child when he/she is kicking the back of your seat.
7. People who smoke cigars.
8. People who lie.
9. People who talk on their cell phones when driving.
10. CD/DVD packaging.
11. People who exceed the 10 item or less rule at the grocery store.
12. Price stickers that can't be removed easily and leave a messy glob.
13. Non-existent customer service - in store or on the phone.
14. People who use other peoples handicap hang tags and park in handicapped spaces.
15. People who use cell phones in public places with no regard for those around them.
16. People who park sideways in parking places so their precious cars don't get dinged.
17. People who tailgate.
18. Telemarketers.
19. Computers - sometimes.
20. Being the next in line at the post office only to have the worker leave his/her station.
21. People who talk with food in their mouth.
22. People who continuously stir their coffee and then slurp it too.
23. E-mails that say "You're special" only to realize it's been sent to 25 people.
24. People who don't flush the toilet in public restrooms.
25. Inconsistency in women's clothing sizes. Why isn't a size 12 a size 12 all the time?
26. People who bring young children to fine dinning restaurants after 7:00 pm.
27. People who wait to begin writing their check until after their order is completely rung up.
28. Smokers who drop their cigarettes on the ground or toss them out the car window.
29. Aggressive drivers.
30. Men who wear hats at restaurants or when the Star Spangled Banner is being sung.
31. Women who wear too much perfume and men who wear too much after shave.
32. People who don't return their grocery cart to the corral or the front of the store.
33. People who don't rinse the toothpaste out of the sink.
34. Skinny people who talk about how fat they are or how terrible they look.
35. Those annoying little subscription cards that fall out of magazines.
36. People who don't use turn signals.
37. People that wear ill-fitting clothes.
38. Barking dogs.
39. People who don't hold the door open for you when they know you're right behind them.
40. People who are consistently late.

Well, I must admit, forty is a lot of things to be annoyed about. But, I must also admit, I can relate to almost all of them. How about you?

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Musings

Over the last few days, I have had the distinct pleasure of keeping a friend's blog updated while she under went an extremely difficult surgery. Not only was the experience gratifying, but I think I did a darn good job! It was also great to see that people actually read the posts - I know this because they left comments. Today was a good day for me and for my friend who is recuperating nicely.